Last night and the earliest parts of this morning I had no LDs or separations. I have continued trying the SSILD technique and am still on the fence about its effectiveness.
It was after 8 am today that I decided to lay on my stomach to try to go back to sleep, and it was while in this state that I came to awareness that there was a prominent ringing sound, vibrations in my back, and that hazy floating feeling that generally accompanies the closest approximation I usually have to a separation.
I rolled out and onto the floor, but something happened to where my orientation switched suddenly and instead of facing up toward the ceiling, I was facing down, or vice versa. It made me concerned that I would get booted from the phase, so I began palpating everything in sight like mad.
I'm not sure how I got on the other side of the house, but I worked my way out of the kitchen into the livingroom and started palpating different knicknacks that don't exist in real life on shelves that didn't exist either.
Eventually I made my way down the hall and Sue opened the door as expected. She was not naked as expected, and worse yet, the bed was empty and there was nobody in the room BUT Sue. My latest plan had been that Cora would have her wrists strung up tied to the ceiling and be blindfolded and gagged. I additionally modified that Melissa would have her wrists strung and tied to the top of the bed and be blindfolded and gagged.
The main purpose for setting this expectation was so I could have control over the DC women not wandering off or delaying me in my POA, and also so they did not distract me with dream dialog or get me engaged in sex before I had sufficiently deepened. What a letdown that neither were present!
Of course I turned my attention to Sue, but I think I was starting to lose lucidity despite taking definite actions to deepen. I don't remember how or if her clothes came off, but I assume they did. I do remember at one point that she knelt in front of me and sucked my cock, but there was a frustrating lack of sensation.
I tried to take control of things by picking her up and bending her over the side of the bed. I was looking at her ass, but I also recall there being the sight of thick brown hair in proximity to her netherparts- not curly pubes like you might expect, but tousled straight hair that you would find on someone's head in a short-cut hairstyle.
As I proceeded to drill her pussy, she started asking me if I was going fuck her in the ass. I got drawn into the damn conversation and told her that I had not planned on doing that, that I was just trying to pump her pussy, but if she wanted me to probe that hole, I had nothing against it.
Being buried inside Sue was kind of strange feeling. If I had to try to describe it, it would be kind of like pounding the hole of a balloon filled with meat- it had the sensation of being inside something stretchy and rubbery, but there wasn't nearly enough wetness and an aggravating lack of skin-quality contact.
I don't recall how I lost the phase but I am pretty sure I woke up. I forgot to grasp Sue or some other object from the phase in order to keep myself anchored there. I did not experience any further phase entry experiences before I finally got up for the day at about 11:30 am.
No comments:
Post a Comment